Your memory will carry on

But if strength ain’t real, […] then the weakness sure enough is. Weakness is true and real. I used to accuse the kid of faking his weakness. But faking proves the weakness is real. Or you won’t be so weak as to fake it. No, you can’t ever fake being weak. You can only fake being strong.

- Sometimes a Great Notion

Ken Kesey 

De warmte die je bracht laat nu een stekende kou achter. Ben ik nu blij met wat ik gedaan heb? God nee. Ik krijg er spontane zelfmoordneigingen van. Ik moet het maar als een pluspunt bekijken dat ik het iniatief zelf nam, dat ik vooral mezelf de schuld ervan kan geven.
Ik had graag tijd gewild, maar dingen zoals dit gebeuren in het leven. Denk ik, hoop ik. En ik blijf maar doorgaan, woorden zoekende die verklaren wat ik nu eigenlijk wil zeggen. Maar die was ik al verloren voor ik jou kwijtraakte. Het is zo koud.

All because of you,
I haven't slept in so long.
When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean,
Longing for the shore where I can lay my head down,
Inside these arms of yours.

30 ways to make your girl smile (:

01. Tell her she is beautiful, not hot or fine.
02. Hold her hand at any moment you can.
03. Kiss her on the forehead.
04. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
05. When she is upset, hold her tight and don’t let her go.
06. Recognize the small things. They usually mean the most.
07. Call her sweetie, not baby.
08. Sing to her no matter how horrible your voice is.
09. Pick her over all the other girls you hang with.
10. Write her notes [ she loves them ] .
11. Introduce her to family & friends as your girlfriend.
12. Play with her hair & if it smells good tell her.
13. Pick her up, tickle her, and play-wrestle with her.
14. Pick her up and act like you’re going to drop her. She will scream and yell to let her down even though she loves it.
15. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes. Okay, just tell her jokes.
16. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you miss her.
17. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
18. Carve your names into a tree.
19. If she’s mad, kiss her.
20. Give her piggyback rides.
21. Bring her flowers just because.
22. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.
23. Let her take as many pictures as she wants.
24. Slow dance with her even if there isn’t music playing.
25. Kiss her in the rain.
26. Take long walks on the beach at night with her.
27. Wait outside her house in the pouring rain to surprise her when she gets home.
28. When she’s ill, stay by her bedside.
29. Play-fight with her and let her win.
30. ..And most importantly: if you love her, tell her

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Forever made me cry

I'd scream this song right in your face if you were here.